Boredom has set in...Indulge me here - myspace blog post

So today I feel a little...blah I guess. This caught me a bit off guard, as I was flying high after playing volleyball last night (sidenote: I am truly having a blast playing again! We won 2 out of 3 last night, and it was fantastic. I know I keep raving about it, but it makes me so happy that I can't shut up.). However, there it was: blah. I sat with it for most of the day, trying to figure out what my problem was...I didn't come up with much until I arrived at night class and Kari said, maybe you are just bored. Voila! That makes complete sense. Law school is old news (and also truly boring in itself), my dating life is in need of CPR or some other form of resuscitation, I don't have a lot of time to really see people, I miss Sarah and many of my other friends (note about not having time), and I lack motivation to do work. Thus, boredom and the subsequent blah feeling. Volleyball is fantastic, but that can't be the sole source of happiness for an entire week. It just doesn't last that long. Maybe I should find some other sports teams to join...that actually is a good idea!

Seriously though, besides more sports, I need to change things up...what to do about this...I need a game plan. Perhaps the first step should be to make plans with peeps. So peeps, let's do it. My lack of blah depends on you.

Over and out.

Fun fun fun (and a tiny bit of ouch)! - myspace blog post

Many of you know that I demolished my knee in May of 2005, and some of you probably know that before that, I spent a great deal of time playing sports (volleyball and basketball teams, two softball teams, and sometimes flag football). Since the injury, I really haven't played much of anything, except for tons of physical therapy and one volleyball match. The injury was devastating for many reasons, but mainly because I've loved sports my entire life and I'm truly an athlete in my heart and soul. The second I got hurt, I knew what I had done and what rehab would entail, and also that I might never be the same.

However, as noted above, I absolutely love playing sports, so I decided to get back into the game with my old volleyball team this season. I did this even though I still cannot forget the sound my knee made as I tore everything in it (it was seriously sick - at least one of my friends in the outfield heard it too!). Thinking about that sound and the way my leg bent makes me nervous to play again, but I'm going to give it a shot anyway.

So, last night was the first game of the season, and despite some weakness/soreness, I had an absolute blast. We lost all three games, but the other team was very good and we hung in there quite well, considering most of us hadn't played in a long time. I really didn't care that we lost; it just felt terrific to be playing again! Who cares if I had to ice my knee twice and my ankle once (my ankle is a different story, let's just say it's not structurally sound according to my doctor)? And that I am quite stiff this morning (walking around like an 80 year old)? Not me. It was fantastic to be back...now if only I could remember how to pass/serve receive! Anyone want to take some time out of your day to hit serves at me? Anyone? Anyone? Bueller?

Hope everyone is well!

Happy Coming Out Day - myspace blog post

To celebrate National Coming Out Day (which is today), I'm wearing a shirt that says: "Gay? Fine by me." Stonewall Alliance at HUSL gives away the shirts every year on this day, and I finally remembered to wear mine on the right day. However, I was the only person at school to remember. Oh well, hopefully when I return for my afternoon class everyone will have the new ones for this year. If not, I guess I can stick out a bit. It's been a long time since I've been an activist, so it won't kill me to wear the shirt and be maybe just a bit uncomfortable.

Speaking of activism, isn't it funny how things change? In college, when I got angry about the multiple injustices in the world, I typically acted on that anger, whether it be through joining a group, writing letters, volunteering, making calls, participating in rallies, or even marching (God, I hated marches-so not my thing. Wait, maybe that was because I was a lesbian marching through Saint Cloud...who wouldn't hate that?). I was changing the world and loving it!

Lately however, I'm not much of a joiner/activist. It's sort of sad, but I wonder if it's inevitable? Life has become much more busy, and I think we all spend each day thinking about the things we need to do just to make our own lives work. As a result, it becomes more difficult to think about the bigger picture and what needs to be done to make the world a better place. Sad, but true. I'm still aware, still involved, and I still care, but just not as much as I used to. I wonder if I should change that, or if I should just accept it as one of the inevitable changes life entails. Afterall, I am 31 now. Ha. Seriously though, this is definitely I need to ponder...

A beautiful life - myspace blog post

It's often easy to forget how lucky I am. I get bogged down by school and all that it entails, and it's just easy to get wrapped up in the minutiae of daily life. Traffic, lines, never sleeping enough, blah blah blah.

However, all week I've been reminded of just how blessed and lucky I am. I received birthday messages galore and had a fabulous party to celebrate my birthday and job offer with HLNJ. As I was surrounded by people wanting to celebrate with me last night, I realized that I have a great life. My life is full of fantastic family and friends. How could I ask for more, honestly?

So, to all of the fabulous people in my life, thank you! Thank you for the birthday wishes via phone messages, texts, myspace comments, emails, IMs, cards, and even Twitter. You all make my life extraordinary, and I am overwhelmed with gratitude. Words really aren't enough, but again, thank you! I wouldn't be where I am without all of you!

Right on, Carrie Bradshaw! - myspace blog post

"I'm looking for love, real love, ridiculous, inconvenient, consuming, can't live without you love." - Carrie Bradshaw, Sex and the City

That pretty much sums it up. I want that. Call me crazy, call me naive, call me whatever, but that is my truth. I'm willing to give that as well. It's who I am and what I want.

I'm not saying I NEED this. I am happy with the life that I have - I have a fabulous family and terrific friends. I have a warm bed, a roof over my head, and food (and diet coke) in my fridge. I have a big orange cat who adores me and who I adore.

I guess my point is this: My life is good with or without a romantic relationship. Thus, I'm not going to settle for less than the real deal, the whole package. It's all or nothing baby. I know who I am and what I want. I deserve that because I also give that. I am worth it. So, there you go. All of this might sound random to you, but it makes sense to me, and I guess that is all that matters.

Thanks, Carrie!

Quote of the Day - myspace blog post

I love this, and it rings true for me. You just never know when you or your kind words will be the bright spot in someone's day. Say the kind things you are thinking!

"Sometimes someone says something really small, and it just fits right into this empty place in your heart." ---Angela Chase (Claire Danes), My So-Called Life

Ah Danette - myspace blog post

So I was just across the hall visiting my dear friends Kristin and Danette. As usual, it was excellent to see them. Danette even made banana bread, one of my favorite things. All was well until we started talking about my upcoming birthday. Suddenly, when Danette realized that I was going to be 31, she literally said, "oh shit!" She then proceeded to burst out laughing while Kristin (who isn't far behind me in the age category) and I said, "nice!" The jokes started flying then, and I laughed so hard my stomach hurt. Danette tried to explain her reaction by saying, oh I just remember when I thought 30 was so old. Now I guess I think 70 is old. Ha, good try! 30 will be upon you before you know it, youngin!'

Also in the midst of all this, Kristin mentioned that she recently received an AARP membership. What the heck? Soon you will just get one with your driver's license. Oh, you turned 16 today, don't you think it's time to consider AARP?

Anyway, after much howling, I decided to take my greying self back across the hallway so I could attempt to complete some homework. It's a miracle I made it without a walker!

D, you know I love you and I'm just messing with you. However, if you ever really do start worrying about all the old women in your life, just think about all the money you will be saving with Kristin's AARP membership! Sups hot.

Good times!

And I quote, "a gay" - myspace blog post

So, I'm in Administrative Law right now, and we are discussing a case that involved a gay man being kicked out of the CIA because he was a security threat. In describing the case, my professor actually said, the man was "a gay." Then, in continuing the conversation, he laid out a spectrum of things that could be troublesome for security purposes, and it went like this: heterosexual adultery, gay and lesbian activity, and then on to something else (he actually said we were past the first two things, whatever that meant). So, in other words, being gay is somehow now worse than committing adultery. This class has been enlightening! I wonder where homosexual adultery leaves one on the spectrum of shady activity? In really rough shape I guess. Perhaps we should ask Senator Craig...

I don't actually think my professor is a homophobe...I think he just needs to rethink his vocabulary and recognize that his statements might be offensive. Anyway, I actually almost laughed out loud in class. I sometimes forget that everyone is not living in the gay bubble. Good times!

How can it be mid-September already? - myspace blog post

Time is flying by again! My birthday is less than three weeks away-what happened to 30? It's crazy! I suppose 40 will be here before I know it. Sometimes I wonder what happened to 18 or 25...I suppose that is the way life works though. Gotta keep moving forward.

In good news, I passed the MPRE (multistate professional responsibility exam for my non law friends; it's part of the bar exam). Some of you might remember that I took this exam in August after very little sleep and virtually no studying. I guess you don't need either to pass! In fact, I did more than pass-I kicked the exam's ass! Yay! I'm really glad to be done with that. I guess a lot of people fail, so it's a relief.

In funny news, I recently purchased a web cam. Now I know some of you are thinking, ah Schmiddy, you have to give up the porn star dream, but in actuality, I bought the cam so I could talk to Sarah in Northampton. She has one too, so now we can actually just talk. It's sort of cool, but it also feels sort of geeky. Anyway, if any of you are ever just dying to have a web convo with me, let me know.

Well, my friend Jane just came to have lunch with me, so I must go. Later skaters!

PS: As I mentioned, my bday is coming up. I'm thinking about some bday dancing, so stay tuned for that.

I'm going to be employed in September of 2008! - myspace blog post

Hi all,

I got fabulous news last week and forgot to blog about it. HLNJ called and made an offer for a job starting in September of 2008! Yay! My hard work this summer really paid off, as now I will have a job when I graduate (well, assuming I graduate, which dear lord I better).

I'm a little worried about my current financial situation however. I managed to save up some money from the summer, but not a whole lot, and I'm currently unemployed. The real problem is that I don't want to be employed right now. I want to just focus on school and then the bar because I will be working plenty starting next fall...the question is whether I can really pull it off this year. Time for a real budget perhaps. We'll see. My extravagance can be a bit insane at times. I like nice things and they like me!

In other news, my sinus infection seems to be almost gone. I'm just really tired a lot now. That's not so bad I guess. Now I just have to catch up in school and all will be good.

Okay, I have to finish my homework for tonight's class. Later skaters.

Oh, if you want to celebrate my good news with me, let me know and we can go for dinner or drinks. Woot!